all i have in my head are these grey boxes, they wont go away till i put them on the internet

you gnow what stuns me everytime

is the effect that psychology has on the image we see

not (just) in that we see what we want to

or that it makes slopes seems steeper than they are

but there is an even-more-pure skewing

i noticed it first when i painted the dunedin harbour and hills

its never till you are viewing the finished painting online

that you see how you have ackzaggerated whatever you consider to be the focus of the view

because of the fovea; because in the centre of your retina is a spot that is crammed with photoreceptors

and whatever you are looking straight at gets horrendously overprocessed

and because your brain says 'better = bigger' (stupid brain,) i painted the notable mountains much higher than they actually were

and comparing the photograph to it,

each peak seems unbelievably inconsequetial.

and then there are portraits where the strange nose gets somehow bigger...

you gnow what tort me kuller like nothing else? trying to deceptively edit photoes in microsoft paint. you think something is one colour and you pick the same one from the palette box but then you get it onto the actual photo and it is nothing like what you thort. and you think an area is one colour but eventually you are forced to beleive that there is a tonal variation there that your brain was adamantly denying....

DO NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES BELEIVE WHAT YOU SEE

belief is for the weak, and you must build a life without it before you can be truly happy

-buddha (me)